Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Case 44: Theme From Retro

I woke from a nightmare that can only be described as ugly. I saw someone I would rather forget, proving ghosts do haunt you when you least expect it. I tried to go back to sleep and thought about more pleasant things instead of a bad memory. I failed.
The bad memory was my encounter with a monster--not literally, but almost. The monster had a very bad temper and a slight overconfidence. Basically, our meeting brought forth days full of spite, shame, and suffering. During those wretched times we habitually albeit unwittingly hurt each other. It ended after the fourth year, in a bloody and venomous confrontation. I wonder what unearthed that memory I have buried for so long.
One explanation is the current presence of other monsters. The sporadic attacks of anxiety might have built up in my subconscious and triggered the memory. It could also have been brought up by my passive emotional state, which mirrors my condition during those dark times. Or, it could have been caused by my recent vaccination against yellow fever. The injected microbes might have infected my brain, manifested as the monster in my dream. The last theory seems the most viable.
I am not sure why I am recounting you this when our last conversation was on organic polymers. I remember telling you they are necessary. What does not kill you makes you stronger. I guess this holds true in the case of inescapable monsters as much as the measles you gave me in the past.
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